Tag: failure

The Error on Page 100

Shhhh, don’t tell anyone, but there’s an error in my book book Angels – The Discovery! I absolutely cringed when it was reveal to me! A body of work that I’ve put an incredible amount of time into is still flawed. I felt like a failure!

I quickly reminisced on the countless days and lengthy nights spent combing through the more than 58,000 word manuscript. I read it over and over again! How could I have missed this? So did my publisher, yet the error was continually overlooked. I initially thought I wasted weeks, months and even years working so tirelessly at this thing. Not to mention the financial investment sacrificed to bring this project to life. I so wanted my debut to the world as a published author to be spot and error free! But like many others before me, that didn’t happen.

That mental beating I put myself through lasted about 24 hours. I had to get over it! The book is here now and still needs to be introduced to the world! God certainly didn’t get me to this point for this is HIS project. I am sure He knew it would be slightly flawed.

But oh how much He can do with flaws! As I launched the book, most readers never detected the error or simply never mentioned it. They were so completely engrossed by the story line and overall content that the minor blemish didn’t take away from the ultimate message. Review after positive review were beginning to pour in further diminishing my over perfectionist thinking. It is good and is finished!

Often times we see the flaws in our lives, character, output and conduct and we magnify them far greater than they need to be. The emphasis should never be made on a slight imperfection but rather the overwhelming beauty of the overall person or matter.

Beneath what we feel is a mistake lies nothing more than intent to show the world what God is capable of achieving. He can do so much with human defects, weaknesses, shortcomings and beyond in order to get Glory that is rightfully His.

I can’t take any credit for the success of this book. Not because of the error on page 100 but the process endured to complete the same. It was all Him from beginning to end. I have faith that this story will impact countless lives, flaws and all!

What faults in your life do you amplify while discounting all that’s truly good and perfect? Stop doing that to yourself and praise your Savior for these imperfections. They serve as purposeful reminders that He can do so much even with these errors present. In fact, our flaws are often intentionally placed at the forefront, exposed for all to see. When success is achieved, we will remain humble and point upward to where our help comes from.

Soulful Sunday – Try Me! (Saith The Lord)

Some people muddle through life in great confusion. Most don’t even know it. Unfortunately, this produces inconsistencies, denial, ill choices, negative outcomes, mental instability and delayed blessings.

When we try living separate and apart from God convincing ourselves that we have control over our circumstances, we rob ourselves and those connected to us from a multitude of favor.

Since God does not affect our “Free Will” and allows us to choose our own way, He patiently awaits for us to go through enough in hopes that ultimately we will Surender to Him!

“Try Me!” Sayeth The Lord

When you can’t figure it out.

When you loose control over your lifestyle.

When you can’t find your way.

When you are down to your last.

When those who were once there suddenly are no longer.

When you are left all alone.

When sickness invades your body.

When poverty threatens your household.

When……(Well, you fill in the blank)

There is nothing in this world more consistent than what God can reveal, promise and deliver.

When you reach that point in your life where no answers can be provided, nothing makes sense and people fail you miserably, ask the Lord what you should do. Listen and His response will most likely be, “Are You Done? Now Try Me!”

Until Next Time, Happy Sunday!

Soulful Sunday – No Other Way!

I gave my life to Christ at the tender age of 14. At that stage I had experienced some minor challenges in life that felt rather monumental back then. Peer pressures, 1st heart break, fleeting friendships and academic problems. At that time, those issues seemed rather detrimental but then life REALLY began to hit!

As a teenager transitioning into a young adult, I wavered away from my faith quiet a bit. I began to stumble through life; desperately trying to discover who I am, what’s my purpose and where do I truly belong. During times of great frustration in many failed attempts at trying to figure it all out, I would deviate spiritually. Doing my own thing seemed more simple, less pressure, and indeed much easier. That never lasted long! Ultimately, I would return asking myself why do things that are not so pleasing to my Savior feel so darn good? At least initially they did; until I found myself in deep rooted trouble, despair, guilt and shame!

Today as a woman in my 40’s, I no longer suffer with roller coaster of emotions wondering where I belong. I’ve made up in my mind that I am a child of The Most High God and in Him I shall remain.

I’ll spend the rest of my days crucifying my flesh in order to magnify His Name. I’ll forsake the opinion of others and consider only what my Savior says of me. Most other opinions that did not line up with the Word of God have consistently failed me anyway. To this day, God has never!

I’ll speak of His goodness, praise His name and share my testimonies in RealBoldTruth unapologetically! He has been too good to me to live any other way! I’ll allow Him to develop my gifts then use them to win more to the body of Christ, for this is what’s required of me.

I’ve spent enough time on both sides of faith to effectively analyze which life is more beneficial for me. I’m fully persuaded these days to live no other way but in my Heavenly Father.

All else is darkness, confusion, trouble, pain, compromise, wayward thinking, Luke warm, non prosperous, curse inducing and Destiny forsaken.

I’ve lived enough years in all of the above and now consistently want all that God has for me. There truly is no other way!

That may mean I’ll spend the rest of my days fighting my sinful flesh and commanding it to line up with God’s will! It may be difficult but I no longer desire the easy way out! That’s cowardly and will lead to nothing else but what I’ve truly been delivered from. RealBoldTruth!

There’s no turning back for freedom I’ve experienced in Christ in my mind, in my body, in my spirit. That freedom is now evident in my family, in my ministry and everything that God allows me to touch! I can’t turn back now! There’s so much more and I’m finally excited about my life!

When you sit back and consider where you came from and where you are today, are you too convinced that you can’t live no other way but for God?

What stark differences do you see?

What’s your experience and how have those around you changed toward and around you as a result?

The benefits of living my life as a Believer in the Gospel of Jesus Christ has not and will not fail me. It’s the only constant that I’ve ever known. For that reason alone, there’s no other way!

Until next time, Happy Sunday!

Soulful Sunday: What’s REALLY Holding You Back?

As weeks create months and months turn into years, decades are formed and reality becomes evident. We are aging and are often faced with “THE” question directly or indirectly; Are we making the most out of the life we have left?

This thought feels irrelevant in our adolescent years when we feel invincible for it appears that there is plenty of time to think on these things later; much later…

Then one day we wake up, look in the mirror and 40, 50, 60,70 and beyond are upon us. Our stark reality is where did the time go and are we living a purposed filled life? You know, the one that God has called us to before we were ever in existence.

If you can say without hesitation that you spend your days doing the thing God put you on this earth for, I certainly commend you! However, if that’s NOT you and you are in those age categories I mentioned above, What’s Holding You Back?

The level of true purpose I am alluding to has nothing to do with that job you slave at every day to earn a living. You can confirm that this statement is true if you feel that something is missing and deep inside, you’re unfulfilled. I’m talking about your primary reason for being. You gift, your talent, that business idea, that ministry, that book, that masterpiece that only YOU can deliver and birth to the world. 

It’s that thing you have been seeing repetitively in visions or dreams. That idea that gives you chills when you ponder on it but quickly dismiss with a plethora of old and tired excuses..

That hurt

That shame

That lack of confidence 

That comparison to others

That envy of your Brother

That previous failure

That finger pointing and blaming

That lack of Faith in your Lord and Savior 

For many reading this, What’s REALLY holding you back from embracing your destiny is directly connected to a matter you have not officially dealt with in your past. If you don’t face it, you will end up like countless others; leaving this earth and taking what should have been shared with the world with you. Now that’s really selfish! RealBoldTruth!

I recently had to deal with an extremely painful area of my life that I have been suppressing for several decades. I really thought I had it under control especially as of lates. I’ve discovered who I am in Christ, learned how to look to Him and trust Him more, have been in constant fellowship to assure I don’t go back to old ways of thinking and I’ve been serving and giving faithfully in ministry. Yet this soul striping thing keeps coming up and I grew sick of it! I couldn’t put my finger on why I’m still struggling with something that should be so old but knew it was the source of what has been holding me back from all God truly has for me.

I was recently put in a setting and was given the option to become vulnerable and transparent about this thing and my flesh felt reservations. However my spirit prevailed by telling me it’s now or never!

I ultimately shared a very private battle with the most unlikely person and found out she had struggled with the very same thing! I was in complete shock for she seemed to have it all together. She gave me a name for “my thing” and it’s called “Rejection ” she shared with me some tools and specific word that I started using right away and a release I experienced almost instantly!

Initially I was so very uncomfortable being this exposed but it has been way past time to “Tell The Truth and Shame The Devil!” I want my freedom more than my security of holding on to this dead stinky thing that clearly robs me of so many possibilities!

I challenge you today to think on these things. What have you NOT faced, NOT confessed, NOT healed from, buried alive kicking and screaming that will NOT die? It’s the very thing that is stopping you from spending more energy cultivating you “Gift” than dwelling on what won’t change. 

God has so much more for you but you’ll never experience the totality of His blessings if you don’t give this thing up! Stop lying, to yourself, and listening to the voice of the enemy more than the voice of the Lord! 

Do it NOW, before YOU and IT simply become a memory.

Until Next Time, Happy Sunday!

Time for a Spot Check!

What are you doing and where are you at?

Yes I so boldly begin this post by getting all in your business!!

Oh, By the way,  Happy August!

This glorious month leaves us with just under 5 left in 2016. Time is really flying!!

Which brings me back to my initial inquiry; where are you?

Let’s do a quick life spot check!

Are you still working towards those goals you so enthusiastically set at the New Year or have you run out of steam?

Has life thrown you a few punches leaving you questioning the process?

Are you paralyzed by procrastination due to fear and lack of faith that you too can make it? 

Here are some clues that may confirm that you may have lost your way a bit…

Each day looks like the last and hopelessness is setting in.

You have mistaken your career as your life’s purpose putting all your time and energy into what does not and will not produce lasting joy.

You have stopped putting effort into your goals. You’ve lost sight, hope and remain at a standstill.

You are feeling bitter, slighted, antsy, impatient, doubtful, angry and a whole host of other negative emotions….

So these things happen to us all from time-to-time. I have both hands up confessing that these mental barricades have tried to take camp in my journey as well. But I have become radical and refuse to go backwards for there is nothing behind me that’s beneficial. I must keep moving.

So do you! If you are not happy in you relationships, job, business or have qualms with yourself, God has given you all you need to change your circumstances. They won’t alter on their own, YOU MUST DO SOMETHING!

Stop with the excuses, the pity party and the blame games. Especially as believers in the sacrifice of Jesus Christ, it’s either we believe his Word or we don’t!

It’s not too late! Five months is still a good bit of time especially since we serve a very Big God who is able to do all things!

What will the end of your 2016 look like? You decide!

From Trash to Treasure

Several months ago I walk away from a job that I absolutely thought I needed. It was extremely scary for me because it was the most money I had ever made and I held the medical benefits for my family. Not only was I scared and naturally worried about provision, I also suffered a tremendous blow to my self-esteem, worth and value in the corporate arena.

I thought I was smart, savvy, confident, personable, results driven and the right person for the job initially. But within 6 months I was told indirectly that I was incompetent, unapproachable and ineffective. At one point I was even labeled Hostile!

As my health began to take a turn for the worse in such a short period of time, I finally threw up my white flag and walked away without a back up plan. I did a lot of crying and reminisced on every account. I blamed myself for it all, hung my head down low and felt like a can of discarded trash! I remained in this clouded harsh self-judgment for weeks.

While left alone, there was nothing else for me to do but pray. Boy did I do a lot of it!!! God responded immediately by answering my requests for provision and then showing me quickly that I wasn’t the problem but rather the work environment. It was an ill match for my professional views and values. God did not choose that job for me but I went against his Will, did my own thing and tried to call it HIS blessing! What an excruciating lesson that was for me!!

Today I am back to work. This position I now hold was selected by my Heavenly Father for certain! I was interviewing with multiple companies and ask God to close any and all doors I am NOT suppose to enter into. There were two jobs I just knew I would get offered, but I didn’t. Although confused and still to this day unsure why I was not selected as a final candidate (I had 3 interviews with both!!) I completely felt secure and trusted God 100% with the process.

I’ve been working for 1.5 months and already highly regarded by my current employer!! I have been able to make effective contributions and my efforts have been acknowledged locally and abroad. I’ve got my mojo back! My professional charm, charisma, drive and beyond gel effortlessly in this place. Those I work for make me feel like a discovered treasure!

Have you ever been in an environment, job, relationship, church or organization where others belittled your value? Are you in one now? As you sister in the Gospel of Christ Jesus allow my soul to encourage yours to seek your Heavenly Father for direction. If how you are regarded speaks the opposite of how precious you are in God’s eyes, then you are NOT experiencing His best for your life.

You may have to loose money

You may get your heart broken

You may be called weak or foolish by man

You certainly have to surrender your own will!

Believe me, I know how difficult the shift may be, but there is great reward on the other side when you surrender and transition from Trash to Treasure. 

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Failing Forward

Failure

So that thing you thought was a game changer didn’t quite work out the way you had hoped, planned and prayed.  That relationship, that job, that business venture, that spontaneous move, or that new thing you just felt so confident would alter your life for the better.  Now it has fizzled, fallen completely apart leaving you feeling like a failure.  You have come to the harsh reality that salvaging is by no means possible.  What remains are not fragmented pieces but fine sprinkles of dust far beyond reconstruction.  No matter how many times you play your steps over and over again in your mind, your ego remains crushed, your heart broken, your esteem scarred, and your mind constantly wondering what exactly went wrong.  What to do now in the midst of your devastation?

I’m inspired to write about this because I am going through a situation like this right now.  I had no doubt that this thing was for me and me for it.  I asked, I prayed, I believed and I received!  But still I failed! Natural human instincts was to self-examine.  What did I do wrong in the process?  I found many faults that I would not have recognized before-hand until I fell flat on my face.  I did not take these as lessons initially but saw myself as a complete failure for I have never been at this place before and was completely baffled.  When I came too and realized that this mindset was not going to be healthy for the long term for myself, nor my family, I went into regroup mode.  What do I REALLY do next?

Prayer: As a believer, the first step should always be to pray especially if you really don’t know what to do going forward.  I must admit that I did NOT do this initially and paid the price for not submitting all things to the one who has it all under control to begin with!  I paid the ultimate price in my mind.  No one to blame but me for I know better!  So completely thankful for unconditional love in my savior, husband and children.  I don’t know how they put up with me at times for real!!!

Reassess the Situation:  Failure is not all bad!  They are lessons to refine, shape, and improve our character.  This only happens if we don’t keep making the same mistakes and learn from the initial mishaps.  As much as I hate admitting this, failure is truly part of the formula for achievement.  Not a new revelation by far, but rather a stark reminder!  Embrace the lessons and keep them in your FRONT pocket when faced with yet another forward moving opportunity.  They will always present themselves as long as your eyes are open to recognize them.

Forgive Yourself:  This was a challenge for I am usually very hard on myself.  (Proud Petunia what they call me!) I want to succeed and be the best at all efforts put forward especially when I am in full motivation gear.  When things don’t work out I come down tough on myself.  Yeah, I might need a little kick in the pants but sometimes I smash my own face in the dirt when I am already down for way too long.  Can you relate?  Truth is, the longer I am down and blinded by the muck, I can’t see my way forward.  I’m so over it, NEXT!

Change Your Attitude:  Another chance will come so stay encouraged and watchful.  I am in my “meantime” and waiting.  Taking advantage of this “Down” period is key.  Dusting myself off by getting my psyche in order, mentally spiritually and emotionally is a precondition.  I will be ready for the next break and have my “Lessons Learned” notes handy for reference.  I am still the blessed bomb if you haven’t already heard!  Aren’t you?

Help Someone Else:  While I am waiting I am taking advantage of times to help other people who are struggling in areas that I have had success in.  I had an opportunity to do this twice last week and found that this is a great recipe for my little damaged ego!  Most importantly, edifying is necessary as a believer!  All things work together………

What failed thing are you beating yourself up about that you need to look at differently?  Find the opportunities in those misfortunes and take the recommended steps above with me. (Preferably In Order!)  You will look back and find the necessary beauty in Failing Forward.