Tag: salvation

Not Yet Delivered

I gave my life to Christ well over 20 years ago. I distinctly recall standing before a pastor, congregation and a small fleet of deacons at a modest baptist church. I willingly repeated the prayer of salvation and thought finally, I had it all together! The moment felt like a cleansing, a renewal, a refreshing as I asked the Lord to reside within my heart permanently. 

I also remember leaving that place of worship that day the happiest I had ever been! But within days I experienced an incredible, deep, emotional low that seemed to threaten my committed confession to God. I remember asking myself, if I am now saved, why do I still feel so heavy, so worthless, so unwanted, so undeserving, so un-Christ-like? This mental contradiction would actually linger on for nearly two decades thereafter.

Periodically, throughout my Christian experience, I would hear the expression “Deliverance”. Unfortunately, I didn’t know what the term truly meant. As I struggled long-term with overwhelming bouts of depression, low self regard and thoughts of destruction, I wasn’t able to make the connection and often questioned God’s love for me. I was actually saved but not yet delivered.

Not Yet:

Delivered from ill thoughts

Delivered from fleshly struggles

Delivered from seeking value in man

Delivered from wanting things more than God Himself…..

Fast forward to today, I am completely filled, set free and and over the tormenting mindset of my past that has tried to limit and silence me. After giving my life to God, I didn’t know that to reach the position of freedom, I had to go through a deliverance process. That route for me meant getting consistent Word that counter-reacted my automatic state of mind. I had to reprogram every single thought, shift destructive behavior patterns and clean out my circle! In doing this, I had to become incredibly vulnerable by taking a chance with complete strangers. I let them into into my dark and guarded spaces. My secrets, my mistakes, my pain, my shame….. I had to commit to showing up regularly to places where help and mentorship was available no matter how uncomfortable I felt. 

My flesh fought me long and hard in these areas but my spirit won for I wanted and needed to be free! I took the risk because life certainly had to get better than what I was experiencing. I wanted, needed and desired more of God. 

The God of More than enough. 

The God that has plans for me.

The God that would use me to assist in delivering others.

The God known as my Abba Father.

The God that really, truly loves me.

Are you a believer today still stuck in many ways, habits and thought processes that sent you to the alter giving your life to Christ in the first place? If so, the answer to move past this paralyzingly norm is to get DELIVERED! 

At minimum, you need The Word of God specific to your issues. You need mentorship from those who have been in your shoes to help pull you through. You need a committed prayer life to hear the voice of the living God. 

Deliverance is a serious process and won’t happen over night. You will have to be willing, patient, vulnerable and fight your flesh harder than you ever have before! It took me over two years to totally be free of over 30 years of all I’ve ever known in thought and deed. Every step was completely worth it! I’m so grateful and I’ll never go back! 

Until next time, Happy Sunday!


Soulful Sunday – Be Ye Ever Ready

Last month my employer sent me away on business travel. I’m not very fond of leaving my family for extended periods of time. My husband had just returned home after his job sent him away for a week two days before I was to leave for Wilmington NC. 

All I could think of was business all day long non-stop! Breakfast, meetings, lunch, more meetings, dinner meetings and business happy hour!! I can’t put on professional “Game Face” but for so long! I’m not a very good extended hob-nobber by far! I have to eventually take the facade off, breath and just be myself!

This trip however turned out to be a Pleasant surprise! God used me to minister to one of his son’s and three of his daughters during my short two day stay! 

My boss asked if I wanted to rent a car to get around or just take an Uber. I declined the rental. While on my flight I wondered if I had made the wrong choice. Little did I know at the time, I had made a God choice!

My taxi driver that transported me to my hotel shared with me her financial struggles. I felt moved to leave her a healthy tip. She was overwhelmed and so very grateful!

The following morning I called for another Taxi to take me to the office. A man arrived and as soon as I opened the door I noticed a bible laying very close to the driver’s seat. I instantly opened up conversation with him and learned that he was trying to learn about God, was going through a very difficult period in his life and was unsure if he was indeed saved. The Lord used me to pray with him and lead him to salvation before I got out the car.

I was to meet several high level business associates that morning. The first was a facility CEO. As I sat in her office I felt the presence of God and knew that she was a believer. During lunch I took a chance and opened up to her about my faith. We talked about Christ nearly the entire time.

That evening was not filled with business meetings and I was so grateful! I took a cab to the beach and treated myself to dinner. I decided to take an Uber back and got a lovely young lady who was still in college. We talked the entire time and God used me to encourage her on some decisions regarding her future endeavors. She was extremely receptive and such a pleasure to talk to.

Finally, my driver who arrived to transport me back to the airport was a woman several years younger than me. She was playing gospel music in the car and of course I sparked conversation based on that. What followed shocked me beyond my expectations! She opened up about a testimony that I certainly would not have matched with my natural eye by the way she looked! We praised God the entire ride! Before I left her, God used me to lay hands on her to declare healing, prayed with her and exchange contact information.

As I sat in the airport waiting for my flight, with my spirit reminiscing on all my encounters, it was clear to me that God sent me all the way to Wilmington, NC to minister to four of his precious children. Glory to His Name! What a complete Holy Ghost set up and honor!!

My soul was stirred up in prayer the entire time so I was ready! My spiritual ear was tender to the urging of my Father to speak to these strangers about his goodness.

Has God ever used you in unpredictable places before?

As children of The Most High God, we must be ever ready when he calls us to be representatives of Him. You just will never know who you will meet and the incredible stories behind those faces! It’s never about us, but Him and Him alone.

Have a blessed Sunday and be ye ever ready!