Tag: Sickness

Inspiration, Wisdom

Somebody, HELP ME!!!!!!

Being an accountable woman of excellence is extremely difficult at times. The daily demands expected of those she is responsible for can sometimes take an adverse toll mentally, physically and spiritually. This is even more true as she begins to age.

I ended 2016 weary and drained in every way. I’m a full time employee, mother, wife, aspiring author and a servant in multiple ministries. Like many women, my schedule is completely full and I rarely take time to slow down to pay attention to my own needs. 

One evening after a frustrating day of work, I came home with a million things to do. My son needed homework completed, dinner needed to be prepared and so much more. I stopped to pick up groceries and when I walked in the kitchen it was filthy from dinner the night before. My husband was where I typically find him, lounging by the television with his feet up and remote control nearby. My son was now hounding me for a snack and I hadn’t even taken my coat off or set the groceries down!

As you can imagine, my internal instincts were near explosive for I had not been getting enough sleep. My son suffers from chronic eczema and often wakes in the middle of the night. Sometimes up to 2-3 times. My husband has also developed a snore over the past two years that I find extremely hard to sleep through. 

As I gave into my son’s demands for a treat, I began to clean the kitchen. Slamming dishes in the washer and aggressively wiping down counter surfaces. All the while having many thoughts of regret in all the titles that I have. I was feeling like a slave and it seemed that my family was completely blind that I was struggling with my stamina. Not to mention, I already battle daily to fight away the fatigue symptoms that naturally come along with Multiple Sclerosis. I hated everyone for not being concerned about my well being. I had no idea how much longer I could go on doing nearly 15 hours of work off of 4-5 hours of broken sleep every night for months! I felt like I was dying!

As my husband walked into the kitchen making light conversation, he felt the tension I was giving off. When he asked what was wrong, I flew off the handle! Yelling, screaming and ending my rant with these words, “HELP ME!!!!”

He was of course offended with my approach and brushed my tirade off as if it meant nothing and I was just being a typical nagging woman. My short fuse disturbed our son and I just wanted so badly to pack up and run away!

As I dragged my weary body out of bed the next morning, while my family was still sleeping, I went downstairs to pray. I don’t remember weeping that hard in a long time. I cried out to the Lord about all the demands on my life, my lack of strength, not having a solid or dependable support system, and my concerns for my declining health. God, Please HELP ME!! Just like with my husband, these words were the closing ask in my ranted prayer.

Not long thereafter, the spirit of wisdom took the place of my many ill feelings. God began to show me practical areas that I needed to make a priority in order to stay well. First was my diet. I felt run down due to not giving my temple the necessary nutrients that it requires. I changed that quick with juicing! Within a few weeks, my energy has been through the roof! 

I sought wholistic treatments for my son’s condition. I stumbled across the National Eczema Association that had a list of approved products that I had not tried and his doctors had not recommended. Within weeks of using a natural combination, his skin is near 100% healed! He’s been sleeping through the night for the first time in nearly a year!

My husband suggested that we exercise together. We’re taking a weekly spin class and it’s both challenging and really fun! The necessary movement is burning calories, reducing inflammation and relieving a great deal of stress. The time has also ministered to our marriage as we commit to putting nothing before this bonding time together.

He’s sharing a little bit more in household duties and we started off the New Year with a 31 day prayer, one for the other. God has shown Himself faithful in it all! (Still praying for the snoring deliverance though!)

When you feel like you are at a breaking point, stop to recognize the attack is coming from the adversary and ask your Heavenly Father for help. He is the only one who can provide the relief that we need in order to set our crooked, beaten and worn paths completely straight.

Soulful Sunday, Spiritual Awareness

Soulful Sunday – Whose to Blame???

While watching a news program that reported a very tragic event, a loved one made a comment that inspired this post.

A young woman was interviewed as a follow-up. She survived the terrorist attack in Orlando, FL earlier this year while the cousin she was with died from fatal gun shot wounds. She is indeed blessed that her life was spared and has since gone on and is preparing to do great things.

“But why did God only save her and not her family member?” I was asked. Why does God pick and choose this way? I’m sure the other young woman was just as precious. We’re the statements and more addressed in my presence with offense and so unexpectedly.

Many people travel through life with a distorted perspective of the reasons behind the troubles we face. As a result, an inconsistent, topsy turvy, on again / off again relationship is developed with God. It’s unhealthy, unproductive and robbing of life’s finest.

People tend to blame God for everything! They question His dignity, His love, His intentions and certainly His power!

If He is so big, all knowing and for sees our end before it begins, then why doesn’t He prevent or even allow so many adverse things to occur? Certainly He has the authority to do all things, right??

It is true that God is the Great I Am and all that He says that He is. But that does not erase or dismiss the fact that we ARE indeed in a great Spiritual fight. This brawl involves a consistent and jealous, foe with no other goal but to take us out!

The Enemy (Lucifer, Satan, the Devil) is after us the day we take our initial breath. He constantly lurks around to see who he can use, choose and confuse. He NEVER stops! Disturbing but true never-the-less!

My Realboldtruth is that I too use to think along the same lines as my loved one. Especially during some of the darkest and most questionable times in my life. Certainly God is not for me. For every horrible thing that came my way ,He knew it was coming and yet did nothing to intervene. As a result of this thinking, I became angry and bitter at Him. Unable to consistently trust in Him or anyone who was supposed to have my best interest at hand.

As I am growing in His understanding versus my own, I am learning just how intense this spiritual fight is. If and when people allow themselves to be persuaded by evil demonic forces, bad things WILL unfortunately occur. The full armor of God which includes how to discern and fight in the spirit is critical for the longevity and survival of the saints.

That shooter in that club was certainly under the influence of the enemy. He roamed, plotted, executed and allowed himself to be overtaken with the mindset of demonic presences. This happens everyday! 

When a man or woman decides to harm a child, it’s the influence of evil.

When a person allows themselves to constantly be persuaded with substance abuse, it’s the influence of evil.

When a person decides to become unfaithful to their spouse and drown in lust from another, it’s the influence of evil. 

When a person allows themselves to purposely hurt another with their words and character, it’s the influence…..

It’s ALL the repulsive influence outside of the realm that our natural eyes can see. The enemy is constantly at work! It’s not God’s fault and we MUST stop blaming Him. He will never affect the human life’s ability to choose life or death, good or bad, Him or the enemy. We as individuals must do that and make it our personal constant. 

This is true even when matters seem to happen that don’t appear to be the influence of another like an unexpected illness. This too is still the influence of evil and must be addressed in the Spirit.

It is very sad that sometimes the enemy wins battles. On the contrary I am so grateful that the ultimate finale; the final spiritual war will be won by Him, by us as believers upon His return.

Until then, stop blaming God for all things, but get angry enough at the devil to fight back in the spirit for he is the true one to blame.

Until next time, Happy Sunday!

Inspiration, Parenting, reflection

I Changed My Mind!

Several weeks ago, my 4 year old son fell ill suddenly. I dropped him off at my mother’s home to attend a business meeting that was only to last a little while. Within the hour, I received a call from her and he was crying frantically in the background. What could have possibly happened that quickly, was all I could ask! Swiftly, he developed a fever that knocked his little body out with heat and pain!

As any caring mother would, I left the meeting to tend to my child. I was desperate to nurse him back to health as quickly as possible! He had just started kindergarten and his 5th birthday was two weeks away!

God showed up and the fever broke the following day. He was able to attend school but his personality was different. He was not as playful, smiley or talkative as he usually is. I just made a note to monitor his symptoms and blamed it all on the bug he caught.

The Saturday of that same week, my husband, son and I went to a shopping mall. Isaiah was bouncing around, laughing and returning to himself. I had not seen him like this in several days and was delighted that he was coming around!

When I retrieved him from the car and grabbed his hand, we made our way across the parking lot with my husband several feet ahead of us. My son broke the silence among us and said the most peculiar thing! It nearly made me want to yell out “Hallelujah!” for the entire world to hear!!

Isaiah – “Mommy, I’m not sad no more!”

Mommy – “That’s good baby, I’m glad.”

Brief silence

Isaiah – “Yeah, I just woke up this 

morning and changed my mind!”

I was speechless for a moment! How incredibly mature that mentality is for a 4 year old!! Many adults (including myself) struggle to do this at times! He knew, even at this tender age that he has control over his emotions and chose to be happy! Glory to God! What an incredible eye opener that moment was for me! One that I will not soon forget!




We all have a choice every morning when God blesses us with yet another opportunity to see another dawning. We can choose to operate in a healthy mindset or to be downcast in spirit with a whoa-is-me pity-party. 

Many who are under pressure, enduring sickness, financial strains, relationship chaos, death and other losses can oftentimes grieve and stay negative way too long. For believers, this is the act of taking our eyes off of our Savior and magnifying the circumstances vs. the blessings in and around them.

I think we can all learn an incredible resourceful lesson from my baby boy today. Get up and change your mind! It’s practical advice that can reap priceless returns. There is a time to grieve, be sad, offended and more. The Lord knows and expects us to. It’s absolutely part of being human. But there is also a time to get up and live!

What’s that thing that has you so mentally consumed that you can’t enjoy, appreciate or fathom the beauty that is still in your life? Step on the enemy’s head today and join me in the advice of little Isaiah and simply “Change Your Mind!”