Somebody, HELP ME!!!!!!

Being an accountable woman of excellence is extremely difficult at times. The daily demands expected of those she is responsible for can sometimes take an adverse toll mentally, physically and spiritually. This is even more true as she begins to age.

I ended 2016 weary and drained in every way. I’m a full time employee, mother, wife, aspiring author and a servant in multiple ministries. Like many women, my schedule is completely full and I rarely take time to slow down to pay attention to my own needs. 

One evening after a frustrating day of work, I came home with a million things to do. My son needed homework completed, dinner needed to be prepared and so much more. I stopped to pick up groceries and when I walked in the kitchen it was filthy from dinner the night before. My husband was where I typically find him, lounging by the television with his feet up and remote control nearby. My son was now hounding me for a snack and I hadn’t even taken my coat off or set the groceries down!

As you can imagine, my internal instincts were near explosive for I had not been getting enough sleep. My son suffers from chronic eczema and often wakes in the middle of the night. Sometimes up to 2-3 times. My husband has also developed a snore over the past two years that I find extremely hard to sleep through. 

As I gave into my son’s demands for a treat, I began to clean the kitchen. Slamming dishes in the washer and aggressively wiping down counter surfaces. All the while having many thoughts of regret in all the titles that I have. I was feeling like a slave and it seemed that my family was completely blind that I was struggling with my stamina. Not to mention, I already battle daily to fight away the fatigue symptoms that naturally come along with Multiple Sclerosis. I hated everyone for not being concerned about my well being. I had no idea how much longer I could go on doing nearly 15 hours of work off of 4-5 hours of broken sleep every night for months! I felt like I was dying!

As my husband walked into the kitchen making light conversation, he felt the tension I was giving off. When he asked what was wrong, I flew off the handle! Yelling, screaming and ending my rant with these words, “HELP ME!!!!”

He was of course offended with my approach and brushed my tirade off as if it meant nothing and I was just being a typical nagging woman. My short fuse disturbed our son and I just wanted so badly to pack up and run away!

As I dragged my weary body out of bed the next morning, while my family was still sleeping, I went downstairs to pray. I don’t remember weeping that hard in a long time. I cried out to the Lord about all the demands on my life, my lack of strength, not having a solid or dependable support system, and my concerns for my declining health. God, Please HELP ME!! Just like with my husband, these words were the closing ask in my ranted prayer.

Not long thereafter, the spirit of wisdom took the place of my many ill feelings. God began to show me practical areas that I needed to make a priority in order to stay well. First was my diet. I felt run down due to not giving my temple the necessary nutrients that it requires. I changed that quick with juicing! Within a few weeks, my energy has been through the roof! 

I sought wholistic treatments for my son’s condition. I stumbled across the National Eczema Association that had a list of approved products that I had not tried and his doctors had not recommended. Within weeks of using a natural combination, his skin is near 100% healed! He’s been sleeping through the night for the first time in nearly a year!

My husband suggested that we exercise together. We’re taking a weekly spin class and it’s both challenging and really fun! The necessary movement is burning calories, reducing inflammation and relieving a great deal of stress. The time has also ministered to our marriage as we commit to putting nothing before this bonding time together.

He’s sharing a little bit more in household duties and we started off the New Year with a 31 day prayer, one for the other. God has shown Himself faithful in it all! (Still praying for the snoring deliverance though!)

When you feel like you are at a breaking point, stop to recognize the attack is coming from the adversary and ask your Heavenly Father for help. He is the only one who can provide the relief that we need in order to set our crooked, beaten and worn paths completely straight.

17 thoughts on “Somebody, HELP ME!!!!!!”

  1. I could feel the frustration and energy sapping mood! And trust me it is not the best feeling! But thank God who always got our back when we are weary.

    Thanks for sharing this, it encouraged and blesses my skyl this morning

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  2. Thank you for your thought provoking story. Life can indeed become just a bit overwhelming. God led you in the right direction….health….body…mind…and soul. I enjoy reading many of Dr. Caroline Leaf’s books…Think & Eat Yourself Smart is excellent. I also subscribe to BlackDoc.org. Providing the body with the right nutrients is key. Cutting out sugars, food additives and red meat is crucial. As your body grows stronger you then will feel strong enough to address some of the other stress factors. Communicating to the family that” I need help” is also important. As women we often try to do it all.

    God Bless you for all that you do, including the times you take to bless and pray for me. NO MATTER HOW TIRED YOU MAY BE.

    1 Corinthians 6:19-20 “Or do you not know that your body is a temple of the Holy Spirit within you, whom you have from God? You are not your own, for you were bought with a price. So glorify God in your body”.

    Matthew 11:28 “Come to me, all who labor and are heavy laden, and I will give you rest”.

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  3. Ah. Isn’t it nice to actually be able to recognize and acknowledge when our prayers are answered and how much more we get than we thought we wanted. I like to keep track so I can tell people to talk to your God and then watch and see what happens. And then share that with someone else, like you have done here. Thank you.

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  4. Some of us seem to have a predisposition to take on way too much without regard for our own health. This is not the life to which God calls us. Does He ask much of us at times? Yes, but He will always give us the necessary strength to endure. But what happens when we try too do more than God calls us? We can become overwhelmed and even physically ill. Then we blame God as if it’s His fault that we got ourselves into this situation.
    It’s when we turn to Him, admit our own weakness, that we find our strength and peace in Him. God bless and know that you and your family has been prayed for tonight.

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    1. Thanks for chiming in but I’m grateful that what you shared doesn’t apply to my situation. Unfortunately, it does for many. For me, the ministry stuff I do is the easiest, most enjoyable of my load. It’s my escape and doesn’t require a great deal of my time. I’d be manic if I didn’t have those outlets actually! It’s the other stuff at home that there is no way I can get out of that was draining the most. A demanding job, sick child, changing husband. God called me to it all but adjusting in a healthy way was my challenge. I also never got mad at God about any of it but called out to him in my weakness. My family and I over these past few weeks are doing exceptionally well! I’ve never felt better and thank Him for His grace and mercy. Thanks for your prayers and I’ll join you in interceding for those who may be facing what you expressed. Blessings!😇

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