While checking the activity of one of my social media accounts, I saw an interesting post that stopped me in my tracks. It solicited responses to a very simple but thought provoking question. It read, “If you had the opportunity to talk to one person who is no longer on this earth, who would that be and what would you say to them?” This poll obviously caught the attention of many for there were countless replies to the common thread. The evident was noted as people wrote out their desires to see, touch and feel loved ones who had pass away. Mothers, fathers, spouses, friends, children and others were a mutual theme. Yet as I considered the remarks of numerous strangers to this question, I also noted another trendy response. Many wished they had the change to talk face-to-face with the Heavenly Father and ask him countless “Why” questions. Why so much poverty?; Why the premature death?; Why did this thing not work out when I tried my best?; Why did you allow the enemy to win in this situation?; WHERE ARE YOU? These common pleas confirmed in my spirit that there are a lot of people Mad at God.
As a believer, I can relate to these sentiments and have no problem admitting so. Many of us will not. Giving off the ongoing façade that they remain in the glory, ever believing, faithful and trusting at all times is perceived as the right thing to do as a mature Christian. Personally I think this mindset is a completely deceiving testament to those who struggle to understand how God operates in our lives. If we are not REAL about our experiences, (while we are going through them, and not just after the deliverance), we silently give off a false perception about this walk. Who is that really helping?
I am a realist and a very practical thinker. As a believer, I see strengths and flaws in these personality traits, but they are who I am none-the-less (And God knows this already for I am his child). As I pen these words, I myself am going through my own state of mixed emotions with God. There are sets of circumstances going on in my life that I am just not happy with and I wonder where he is and what he is doing in the midst of it all. Not proud to admit but in my times of frustration, I stop communicating with him for I don’t know what to say. This is especially true during those times when I think I have heard from him so clearly, walked out in what I thought I heard and then it does not work out. What now? I certainly don’t want to hear a bunch of Christian Cliché’s, for they are not resourceful. I don’t want to be around a bunch of fake believers who are not honest about “The going through” process either. Who needs that! My relationship with God is very personal and has similar ups and downs to when I am having a challenge with my spouse, a friend a co-worker or other significant relationships. The only difference is no matter how indifferent I become, I always end up back on my knees apologizing, asking for forgiveness and falling right back into his arms. The truth is, no matter how mad I get, the act of coming back to him shows I still trust him with my life; for there is nothing else I choose to do.
For those today who are disappointed or angry with God, let me encourage you to not stay there long. Sort out your feelings, have your spiritual temper tantrum then remember that he is the God that has your best interest at hand (Even when it doesn’t seem like it!) Although we are made in his image, He does not think like us, he does not move like us, and he certainly does not react like us. Thank Goodness! Could you imagine if he did? I don’t even want to think about it!!
Some may disagree with me, but I believe that its human nature to be mad and disappointed with God at times. We are with everything else, so why be phony about this factual position? We are fooling no one especially not HIM! He knows each and every one of us no matter how perfect we try to present ourselves to others.
My best words of advice on this controversial topic is to tell God how you feel. In your anger, in your tears in your frustration….Be REAL with him! He already knows anyway but you will feel so much better when you can get it out in the open with HIM first! After you have “vented” immediately go into the act of asking for forgiveness, thank him, worship him and tell him that in spite of it all, you still trust him. REALLY, what else are you going to do that makes sense, is profitable and will restore your sense of peace?
There is a song that I listen to when I am feeling this way. It’s called “Fragile”. Listen to the words and I am sure you will be able to relate to each and every lyric. God still has our backs no matter how mad we get or how improbable life seems to become.
Tasha Page-Lockhart – Fragile- https://youtu.be/UGzjeLFCqCI