Today is Father’s Day! An unsung day of sorts that we recognize nationally. Kudos to every man who found it not robbery to operate in selflessness for the well being of their offspring. I salute you!
Unfortunately this level of sacrifice I have and will never know. My biological father chose to live his life for himself, denying me of much and contributing to the many “Never’s” early in my fragile existence.
I never had a birthday party.
I never went to summer camp.
I never went to prom.
I never graduated from high school (GED obtained)
I never had a daddy/daughter date.
I was never treated priceless by the opposition sex.
I never went away to college.
I was never Daddy’s little girl.
I was never mommy’s molded angel
I was never mentored as a youth.
I was never anyone’s sacrificial priority to groom, prepare, and pave a decent pathway towards the start of my future.
I was never unconditionally loved in the natural.
I have simply stumbled through life becoming excessively used, abused mistreated and ill regarded. One left to figure out the mass complexities of life alone with no direction. The scars and mistakes have been many. Mostly invisible to the human eye but tattered and torn fragments were left behind on my heart and soul for countless years.
As a result I have struggled with chronic depression and low self esteem for the majority of my life.
I was never the life of the party
Never had a lot of friends
Never felt socially acceptable
Never felt comfortable letting others get too close….
Do you hear the violins playing?? So enough of that broken record! It’s old and redundant! I’ve wasted well over two decades wallowing in self pity over this major void.
These are mere facts of my life that have contributed to the way I was shaped in the natural. I can’t spend the rest of my days reliving how painful these memories have been. My Never’s” as of lates paint a completely different picture!
I have come to believe, accept and adopt in my heart the sacrifice of Jesus Christ. He is my Heavenly and Abba Father; the only form of provider and protector I have experienced. It’s the only thing I’ve been introduced to that makes sense and is applicable to my entire situation!
Because of Him the Never’s in my life have been redefined.
I am never alone for He will never leave me.
I will never be without because He supplies all my needs.
I will never look to any man for affirmation because He thought I was to die for.
I will never be without friends for He regards me as just that.
I never have to be concerned about being loved for He loves and accepts me free of conditions.
I never have to worry about my future for He has those plans covered.
On this day I give praise and credit where it is due. So I say “Happy Father’s Day to my Lord and Savior” ; the only Example of a true Father I have ever known.