This experience is amazing! The feeling is incredible, it’s peaceful serenity beyond my imagination and a calming I have never known. I don’t want it to ever escape me. So I am holding on with a grasp so strong that I can almost feel the warm sensation of bleeding trickling down my soul. It’s cutting, but I welcome the agony for it really hurts so good.
Yet I’m way too vulnerable for complete comfort. I feel naked and exposed; emotionally and spiritually. I’m use to calling my own shots, making my own way and producing my own results. Surrendering my will is the hardest thing I have ever had to do! That’s REAL TALK! Yet at this precise moment in my life, I have no other choice. My health, my sanity, my destiny are all at risk if I keep trying to create my own path which has been leading me absolutely nowhere! That’s the agony and bleeding of it all.
I have talked a good talk and presented myself outwardly as if I’m truly believing. But I confess that I have been a counterfeit. Far from authentic in what I know to be true! My pride has gotten the very best of me and I’m left weak and out of options.
I’m talking about a REAL faith walk. REALLY trusting God with my now and my future. I’ve been delaying my own destiny with my stubbornness and trying to go in the opposite direction of his will for my life. I haven’t trusted that he REALLY is going to do what he said he will.
Father God I’m sorry, for my ego has been my drive. I’ve been an Indian giver and playing tug of war with you for too long. I’m letting go and finally surrender my wheel to you….
Are you trying to make your own way out of fear, being comfortable in routine, lack of patience and not trusting God enough? Having more faith in our own strength than his promises is a sure method to a dead end.
Think about it as I have as you journey through 2016 and make some adjustments. Is it time for you to give up that stressful job that is clearly taking a toll on your health but you fear lacking provision? Is it time to stop procrastinating and start that business but you fear not having resources? Is it time to stop demanding your own way in your relationships because you just have to always be right? Is it time for you to go to the alter and solidify your union according to God’s plan for man and wife but you are fearful because your last ended with divorce? What ever it is that you are trying to keep control of, ask yourself an honest question; is it really working for you?
His best for your life is directly connected to you simply letting go and TRULY letting God….
Real Bold Truth 
Preach it on!!! This is really for me. Especially current going through the hard process of TRUSTING GOD. I’m beginning to understand the difference between trusting God and having faith in God.
This issues are real especially when you begins to realise that when you eventually decides to follow fully, you begin to undergo painful changes.
Lord! Let your will be done
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Yes indeed!!! The difference is real but process is soooo necessary! In our weakness his strength is sufficient! Give him the Wheel!!!
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WOW so appropriate at the start of the year. As I wrote on my blog “I don’t know what 2016 holds but I know WHO holds 2016.”
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You better know it! I’m about to shout over here Colleen! I’m eating humble pie right now as I let God do the steering! I’m completely exhausted!!! Lol!
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Wow!
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Hi Alluring! Thanks for stopping by my blog! I hope that “Wow” was a good one! Lol! Chanel
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Of course it was a good one. Spoke to me on a deep level. Thanks for sharing
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You are more than welcomed and thanks for the follow!
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Thanks too
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Personally, I’ve found that it’s harder to trust God when you don’t know how to listen to him speak. When you grow up you think that you will hear a human voice in your ear when God speaks to you. He doesn’t but speaks in subtle ways. You switch on the television and hear a relevant part of half of a spoken sentence. Or you see part of the message from a ripped billboard poster. Whatever, you need to learn to listen. When you start to listen you feel that you’re not alone.
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Hi Harry! You are right; for me as a child I thought I was listening for an audible voice but as an adult who seeks to build my personal relationship with him through prayer, fellowship and other ways, he speaks to me subtlety as you mentioned. I know it’s him when the response I get is either totally against what I want to do in the natural, takes me out of my comfort zone and lines up with his word. It’s been a journey understanding how he speaks. I really do believe it’s about that personal relationship with him and no one else. The closer we draw near, the louder he will get. Thanks for stopping by my blog. I do appreciate it! Happy listening😇
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This is a very powerful post 🙂 I have just discovered this blog and I love what I am reading 🙂 Anyway, I hope everything works out for you and keep up the great work as always 🙂
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Hi John! Thanks so much for the compliment on this post in particular! Again I am on the Faith Walk of my life so stay tuned as I post updates for sure! Thanks again!!
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I just posted your reply on my site and I replied back to your reply 🙂 and thank you once again for the kind words 🙂 Sorry, I did not post it right away. Truth is, I was away from my blog since Monday, but I am back today 🙂 Anyway, keep up the great work as always 🙂
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This was so powerful and encouraging. As we embark upon this new season will need to trust God more than ever before. I have also been afraid to completely trust God but I in this season I have to and will let go and let GOD!!
I love it!!!
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So glad you were blessed by this and stopped by my blog! I’m on an incredible Faith walk right now and would loooovvve some company! You can do it, rather you MUST do it!
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