Do you remember the feeling of Christmas morning as a child? For most, that rush, sleepless nights on the Eve and urge to do a sneak peek at the set up noises you heard beyond your bedroom door was so beyond exciting! Talk about having something to look forward to gave our innocent lives indescribable meaning!
For me and during those times, I was the oldest of three and the only girl. I developed this “Need to Know” mentality very early and would often look for the hidden spots where my gifts were stored beforehand. Due to the small bode my family lived in, hiding places were limited and I often discovered before Christmas Day what I was getting.
It’s funny now, but when I think about it deeper I actually robbed myself and my parents of the joy of expectancy simply because I couldn’t wait!
Now that I’m all grown up I find that some of those “need-to-know” characteristics still linger within me. I’ve been excessively frustrated at my progression in life at times as a result.
However, in this phase of life what I want access to early in knowledge or tangible grasp I’m just not going to find! What I long for is in my Heavenly Father and he can conceal things better than anyone until He decides otherwise! No matter how hard I seek to expose his blessings for me prematurely, they just won’t be discovered in my timing!
Lately, In order to ease my inquisitive mind and heart, I’ve decided to go back to my early child-like mentality just a little bit. I have been rising early to spend time with God every morning and present myself with gratitude first and foremost just for blessing me to see another dawning. Then my spirit becomes thrilled and great expectancy begins to flow from my heart.
Sometimes it’s not about anything in particular. It’s just that I finally view Him as the God he truly is! I am His child; He is my Father. He is my Superman and can do all things! He owns the entire world and made everything in it. As a result, I have an inheritance in Him and today could be the day He decides to pour out so I proactively anticipate!
Even by the close of the day if nothing of great significance occurs, I’ve been going to bed thankful most nights and mentally review even The smallest blessings that happened that day. I don’t want to take them for granted. I fall to sleep peacefully but still child-like anxious to see what He has for me the next day!
Having a grateful expectant heart is so much better for my soul and spirit than being ungrateful that I didn’t get what I thought I deserved. It’s the trust and child-like faith that brings sweet peace and much needed rest.
I know that the Word says that as adults we must put away childish things, but I think in this matter, God marvels in our innocent dependence and acceptance that He’s sure to bless us.
Until next time- Happy Sunday!