I don’t know how I’m going to make it and I get frustrated sometimes! Can I just be REAL!! As a believer, as a child of God and yes as a woman with a measure of Faith that God is for me, at times everything still feels unsure and questionable!!
I started this blog because I needed a place that I could express my RealBoldTruth as a Believer! This Walk with Christ can at times be grueling. It’s not my temperament to be some preachy teachy Christian as if I got it all together! I clearly don’t and not afraid or ashamed to admit this!
I’ve run across so many that fall under this definition and the earthly good aspect just escapes me at times! This can’t be more true especially since I’ve deserted being a Holy Roller for the sake of being a relatable representative of the Gospel! Tell it like it is while fighting Spiritual Warfare by Faith. Is it spiritually logical to do both? I believe so; it’s REAL, its BOLD and its TRUTH! Im still working out the balance!
Fact is at times:
I don’t feel confident!
I don’t know why I’m doing what I’m doing!
I feel like I’m wasting my time and should just go back to doing what felt certain!
I feel like I’m portraying to be somebody that I’m clearly NOT!
I am uncomfortably vulnerable and wonder if God knows that!
Readers, you all are my public diary of sorts so thank you for entertaining my Rant!
So now on to my counter reaction and my Praise!
My most important fact above all is:
I’m crazy in love with my Heavenly Father, His Sacrifice and His Word.
I am absolutely insane and nobody without His covering, protection and instruction.
All of my blessings come from The Lord Most High for apart from Him I can do nothing.
In Him I have the power to stand, endure, and rise above the tricks of the enemy!
Anybody with me on this crazy concoction of emotions which are clearly an Oxymoron? Please say I’m not alone! 
Whew!! Felt good to get that out; now back to Patience and Faith before My Hope deferred gets the best of me! Can’t have that…..now can we!
Until my next R&P along my journey of growing up in the things of God, Blessing!!!
Real Bold Truth 
Hi Chanel, As soon as I read this blog, the Lord instantly gave me this word for YOU!
1 Peter 5:9-10 But resist him, be firm in your faith (against his attack-rooted, established, immovable) knowing that the same experiences of suffering are being experienced by your brothers and sisters throughout the world. (You do not suffer alone.) After you have suffered for a LITTLE while, the God of all grace (who imparts His blessing and favor) who called you to His own eternal glory in Christ, will HIMSELF complete, confirm, strengthen, and establish YOU.(making you what you ought to be)
Luv Ya!
Pastor Mary
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Awesome! And I know this to be true!! This post expresses the growing pains of going to the next maturity level in the things of God! The fight is real! Lol! We all face this road as believers! Thank you for the Word and love you lots!😍
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The stronger your FAITH, the harder the test. Whatever you’re feeling right now, Chanel, know that it’s all part of the test of being His believer. 🙂 We are just humans, even His ‘chosen’ disciples faced such.
Keep the faith strong. I pray for you! :* Blessings!
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Amen my love! That’s for certain! I appreciate the wonderful words of encouragement! Blessings always!😇
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Got it all together? No. I’ve been a Christian since I was 19; I am now 66. I’ve learned so much over the years and been through so much. A divorce, dating a lunatic, 2nd marriage and lots of fighting, raising children who hated my church and the people in it. I didn’t blame them at all and left myself years later. Had 2 nervous breakdowns, prozac, therapy, suicide attempt, being mad at God for 5 years and not speaking to him. Sheesh. Not the “Christian life” I dreamed of, believe me.
My last breakdown, therapy and 2 great preachers finally led me to believe what I had never believed: God loves me. Also, God is enough for me; I need nothing and no one else. I have finally found joy and stability with God. I hope you don’t have to take as long as I did to come to that. I’m a slow learner, but maybe everyone is, I don’t know. Just hang in there and keep having a relationship with God. God spoke to my heart a couple of years ago and said, “You have need of endurance.” I looked it up in the Bible. “Allow perseverance to finish its work, so that you may be mature and complete, not lacking anything.…” James 1:3
Endurance seems to be at the end of every list of what to learn. Hopefully, I’ve learned that in my old age. Lol I loved your praise part. “The joy of the Lord is our strength.” The strength to endure.
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My Lord; now this is absolutely RealBoldTruth!! I so appreciate the honesty and love your story! I’m not at a place where I question Gods love for me but expressing the aches and pains of much needed growth in him. My flesh wars with my spirit and feels like two different personalities! Lol! But my spirit is winning for my praises last longer than my rants for certain! Bless you my dear sister in Christ! Our God is faithful to see us through every age and stage in life!🤗
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Yes, my flesh wars with my spirit too. I think that is to keep us humble; but I could be wrong. I think we look too much at ourselves and get discouraged. Keep your eyes on Jesus, the author and finisher of our faith. Remember he said, “Blessed are those who hunger and seek after righteousness, for they shall be filled.” Believe his words. You will be filled, but it takes time. It is a life-long process. First the blade, then the ear, then the corn.
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Awesome. Love it!
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Lol, thanks as you can see I needed to get that out! Now back to my spiritual growing pains!! 🙃
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