Soulful Sunday – 2/28/2016


When The Savior Is Silent

A few weeks ago I had an opportunity to speak at a women’s group at my church. I shared a testimony about an extremely difficult period in my life that I refer to as my “Job-Like Experience.” It lasted nearly three years from late 2007-2011. I lost any and everything important to me back-to-back. The turmoil seemed to come out of no where! One day I was basking in calmness, then the next all hell seemed to break loose simultaneously! 

I suffered multiple family deaths, broken relationships, I was going through a divorce, lost my home, suffered an attack on my health that landed me out of a fairly new job shortly thereafter. I found myself for the first time in my life utterly alone. Only my spiritual life remained and even that hung chronically in the balance. I was incredibly broken from the inside out.

Oh, how I wish I could relay that during these trials that I fell down and worshipped God. I did not! I was utterly offended by my circumstances. I cried out to God often but for the longest time, He never responded. I allowed this silence to completely break my faith and instead of saying “Thou He Slay Me, yet will I trust him…(Job 13:15), I walked away from Him for two years and grew angry, bitter and cold. 

I don’t believe that everyone is called to a Job-Like experience. We will all suffer in this life-time devastation to all of the areas I mentioned above, but a select few will endure this level of loss concurrently. While I was going through, I knew not a soul who was enduring so much loss. Those who knew what I was facing genuinely offered their sympathy but ran out of things to say as I reported one offense after another. They ultimately turned away from me and thanked God that their own situations did not look any where close to mine.

While Job went through, God was silent for what appeared to be a very long time. Job’s first test is revealed in the scriptures in chapter 1 and God doesn’t speak to Job until chapter 38!!! When I consider real time this delay could possibly be translated into weeks, months or even years!!! Never-the-less, Job never sinned against God.

I’m obviously not Job for I sinned a great deal during my trials. Like his wife, I even though it best at times to curse God and die. (Job 2:9) (Real Talk!) Yet when I look back, he never left me. He ultimately began to speak after a time and I looked up noticing how far from the cross I had strayed. I ultimately fell on my knees, repented and came back to the safety of his arms. Like Job, he restored everything I lost and I was forever changed.

Have you had a time in your life when God grew silent?

How did you respond?

What advice would you give anyone struggling to hear his voice during difficulties and He does not speak?

Although I failed my tests miserably, I certainly don’t wish for a retake in that exam by far! I wouldn’t wish the experience on my worse enemy. It is painful long suffering at it’s finest! I am completely thankful that He never left my side during my disobedience and feel honored to share my experience with others.

Regardless of how we view our circumstances, wether in reverence or disobedience, Christ our Savior is still faithful to see us through, even in deafening silence.

Happy Sunday!

Related articles by The RLRT if you are feeling Mad at God. – Forgive God

34 thoughts on “Soulful Sunday – 2/28/2016”

  1. I could relate very well with this post. Especially when I was younger, I was a trickle as anymore fickleness could get.
    If I ask God for something and didn’t get it within a timeframe, I do switch off and go on all on my way to go it myself. Always thought God was just too slow or perhaps he doesn’t even care I exist especially as I keep battling and struggling with a terrible habit.

    God is ever faithful because his love for us is unconditional. He loves us when in our messy state ASD well out of it. Sometimes great messages are born out of great messes. Thanks for sharing this

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  2. Your story reminds us that God isn’t sensitive and touchy. He can handle the reality of our emotions and then show us such goodness that it leads us to repentance (to change our mind and turn towards Him). Thanks, Chanel!

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    1. So true Vanessa! I think he is concerned about what concerns us according to Psalm 138:8 but absolutely does not react like us. Thank goodness for that! Can you imagine if he did? We would be a complete mess. Lol! He’s so perfect in all he does for sure! Thanks for reading.☺️

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  3. God is good! All the time!

    He really is silent right now…I was expecting a miracle and it turned out wrong and I still haven’t gotten a revelation as to the reason for the outcome.

    This write-up reminds me of the Sermon in Church yesterday- With Jesus in the boat- ‘Mark 4:35-41’

    Indeed, I would wake Him up, coz I know He will not allow me perish.

    God bless you for this. I’m grateful to God for your life. This is some deep testimony.

    May the Lord continually perfect all that concerns you. Amen.

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    1. Wow Oyide! So glad you were ministered to by this post. That was my prayerful intentions. Stay encouraged. He really is working things out for you. You will be amazed when it all comes together and will see that the matter was not just for you but to share with others as well. Stay blessed my friend!πŸ˜‡

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    1. Yes Rose! I will be blogging more about the details exactly. I didn’t go through all of that so that the enemy can keep my mouth shut! The story must be told for my complete healing and the encouragement of others. Stay tuned….

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        1. Aww that’s awesome Rose! Encourage her to follow via email as a non-blogger (If she doesn’t blog of course!) so she can get notice when something new is posted. Thanks for sharing Rose. You are an incredible blessing!πŸ˜‡

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  4. My daughter had an experience that leads me to believe sometimes God answers but we are not hearing. My daughter had some money coming to her. She received a few phone calls with she did not return because she assumed someone wanted something from her. They finally sent her a postcard, which she had to read! It was from her last job regarding her 401K. They had been trying to give her some money! God had to put in that extra effort to get her attention.

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    1. That also does indeed happen at times as well. I’ve experienced this too just not in my Job-like experience when my entire world exploded, crumbled and leveled. But I do understand NOW that the entire thing was necessary. So glad your daughter read her mail to get her blessing!! Thanks so much for reading and commenting!☺️

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  5. I walked away from God without being able to see it. I never felt like he left me but looking back I know I LEFT him. I am very thankful for his mercy and grace. It was April 2011, when I lost 7 days of my life to wake up but still not enough to understand until September 2013. Now, I pray I can be a message to others of hope, love and happiness in a world of uncertainty, I know through the pain of losing a husband, losing a child, losing my father at age 55 and growing up in an abusive environment in my teenage years has only lead me to become the woman I am today and it’s all because of the grace, mercy and love of God. Was it easy – NO was it worth it YES. Blessing to you for real life and real talk. πŸ™‚

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    1. I somehow missed this earlier but am so glad I looked back! You are a beautiful survivor for sure and I praise our Savior for your openness! Iron truly does sharpen iron and what better way to heal than to turn our pain into purpose so that we and others can prosper! His Grace & Mercy is what this is for sure! Love you my Sister in Christ! Forever in him – Chanel


  6. Chanel, as before, I praise God for you and your “real talk.” Regarding your question, “What advice would you give anyone struggling to hear his voice during difficulties and He does not speak?” I would advise them to read the words of Elihu in the book of Job (chs. 32-37).

    Few people realize that young Elihu is NOT one of Job’s three so-called “friends” whom God rebuked (see 42:7-9). Young Elihu was a Spirit-filled prophet whom God sent to prepare Job’s hurting and bruised heart in order to finally encounter Himself (Who had never left nor forsaken Job) in chapters 38-41.

    One of my favorite words of wisdom via Elihu that the Lord often gives me to say to persons struggling like Job is this:
    β€œBut those who suffer he delivers in their suffering; he speaks to them in their affliction. He is wooing you from the jaws of distress to a spacious place free from restriction, to the comfort of your table laden with choice food.” (‭‭Job‬ ‭36:15-16‬ ‭NIV‬‬)

    [IF this speaks to you (and only if!), here is more the Lord showed me about the amazing and astounding book of Job ]

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    1. Thank you Deanna! That wooing process is exactly what I began experiencing towards the end of my trials. I will be reading the article you provided in the link. I am fascinated with the book of Job due to my experiences.

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  7. My mother passed away 11 years almost to this day. I was very angry at God because we “did” everything we knew to do in order for her to be healed. When she passed, I felt that God somehow let me down. It took about a year for me to get back on track with God. I let go of my anger and allowed him to heal, me.

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    1. The emotions are real NickyB and I’m so glad you shared this. Many believers don’t talk about this taboo issue but many feel mad, let down and resentful because what HE allows us to endure. It’s still all about Him and he knows best even when it makes no sense to us logically. So thankful you found a way to heal and so sorry for the loss of your mom. A testimony in it all I know you have!

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    1. Glory to God Rick!! So glad God doesn’t do us the way we do him. Every trial is for our good, our human side just can’t see it his when we are going through. So glad you made it back home. Thanks for reading and commenting.😁

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